*sigh*

kalau nak ikutkan penat, aku tak tau nak cakap camne penatnye dah. buat camni tak jadi, buat camni tak kena, abistu die nak aku buat camne lg..? kalo bende psm ni boleh tolong aku dapat keje nanti lain la citenye. ni macam tak nampak ape-ape yg die boleh tolong aku pun. ke aku yang buta? kalau takdee mak abah aku tak tau la mungkin aku dah give up sekarang. sangat penat, dan sangat muak.

*End psm*

kami ade impian. bukan angan-angan tapi impian. "ok, kite gi lepas nanasue bertunang, sebelum konvo ek." sume ok je, tapi macam kene postpone je. weh kawan-kawan, kalau kene postpone nk postpone bile ar? aku nak keje macam korang gak huhu..

psm oh psm

Ketensenan mula melanda. Dah tinggal bape minggu lg ni nak kene present PSM, sume org dh start nk jadik cam org gile. Aku pun dah naik serabut, report yg ntah hape2 ni, pastu mail server plus services lain tak up lg. Huwaa.. nak nangis je rasenye. Tipon mak smlm, mengadu kat die pastu die kata kalo nak nangis, nangis je. Biar lega. Huhu apsal la mak ckp cmtu. Lagi la sedih rasenye. Stok kopi & nescafe kena ditambah ni utk memudahkan & melancarkan aktiviti tak tido malam, dan mungkin juga tak tido siang untuk bebarapa hari. Tu sume normal la tu.. student.. biase la lgpun otak lebih cepat berfungsi kalo ade tekanan *konon*. Skrg padan muke ko. Oh psm.. cepatla ko siap... :'-(

Letupan

Aku sangat jarang marah. Sebetulnya, aku amat susah nk marah. Sebab aku akan simpan je apabenda2 yg aku xsuka dlm ati, demi nk jaga hati org. Tapi kadang2 orang xreti nak jaga hati org lain, yang membuatkan aku rasa org2 camni patut je dimaki hamun depan2 mata. Biar dia rasa apa yg org lain rasa. Setelah beberapa lama menyimpan amarah, aku dah xleh tahan dah td, aku sangat marah dgn orang tu. Tapi, aku xmarah kat dia, aku cite kat orang lain, aku lepaskan kat orang lain; kat member dan kat org yg paling paham aku ( thanks wan !! ). Nasib baik dia ada tadi, sejuk ati aku. Sememangnya aku xreti nak marah depan2 ( apsal la aku still nak jaga hati org time2 cmni lg?! ) Mungkin puncanya xlogik, tp benda tu bercampur-baur dgn perasaan lain; menyampah, meluat, geram, bengang dsb. Jadi la satu letusan yang sikit pun x terpercik kat orang tu. Alangkah bahagianya dia.. Kalau lah semua orang dalam dunia ni boleh baca fikiran orang lain... Hati sabarlah dikau.

busan

busan ar arini, seolah2 xde ape nk buat padahal byk keje lg ni. melaka cam biase la, panas gile. hehehe tp mlm ni lyn movie final destination 3 plak. dh lama janji dgn bebudak ni, dr last week lg. memandangkan last week xde duit sgt, so g la dis week. tp dis week pun xde duit sgt huwaa...
huh. blank dah. pen off dulu.

Kehadiran

Perasaan itu tiba-tiba datang. Tidak diundang, tidak diduga tetapi mengapa ia tiba-tiba hadir? Menyesakkan fikiran, menghadirkan ingatan. Puncanya tidak dijumpai, tetapi yang pasti hadirnya membangkitkan satu perasaan yang sepatutnya sudah lama dilontar jauh. Hmm.. hati, kadang-kadang kau buat aku sendiri tidak memahami..

A belated answer to a question

There's one time where I had a serious discussion with an older guy. I thought having to discuss the matter with a more 'matured' person will give the answer to that thing. He said you have to do this and that, you can't do this and that.. I obeyed some of them, but disobeyed most of them too ( aku kan degil ). There was a question he asked me that I can’t even answer it until this day : “why do u love him?” the only thing that appear on my mind at that time was : “kene ade sebab ke nk sayang org?”. All my answers were wrong, so I gave up. He gave me the right answer ( as if! ) and I was mcm percaya xpercaya sgt la.

Life goes on since that, with me still wondering kenapa aku xdpt jwb soalan tu? Betulke jawapan yg die bagi tu and bla bla.. as a person who I sought help and answers and plus for an older person, I gave him my respect. Maybe he deserves that?

But some time last month, there was an incident that changed my perspective and point of view, but the most important thing was, I lost ALL my respect to him. If only he don’t do the stupid things he is doing right now.. dlm umur² mcm tu, nk buat lg perangai mcm tu? Hey wake up la. Dunia ni berpusing. You won’t be at the top forever!

Untuk guy yg berkenaan; this is the belated answer for your question, in case you want to know it or you are looking for the answer too : “Love doesn’t need any specific reason at all. It is not how you are willing to change or not, it’s about how you both agree to meet each other half-way. After all you are not perfect too.” That’s all. Thank you.

Love ?

A poem made by my little brother and his few other frens for school's English project. Simple but, well.. just read on. For me myself pun rasenye xdpt nk wat poem cmni hehe..

LOVE

Love,
What a fabulous word,
The word of romance,
That plays in peoples’ heart.

Love,
That gathers men & women, girls & boys,
Do not know the different of ages,
That is always blind.

Love,
For it to success,
We must be patient,
Failure or success,
It will never end.

Love,
Everyone is crazy about it,
It sometimes makes you happy, sometimes makes you sad,
But love will always be in peoples’ heart forever.